I love him, always :] Sent from my iPhone

I've been so busy lately..the only problem is i don't even know what i've been busy with. I haven't seen my best friend is ages it seems like, which is kinda both of our faults. I hope i get to see her tonight so i can give her gifts and snuggle her. :] I got to see my old best friend on Friday, amazing! (i know you read my blog, i miss you.. jS.)

Catch up- i'm no longer the giving tree, in fact i hardly doubt i will ever be the giving tree again. Super happy about that. In jail or not, you're totally out of my life. <3

Snuggle'd a cute boy last night, while dreaming out another boy. fml This game will never stop. =x

I'm too tired to type anymore and explain the baseball game that is going on inside my head.

Goodnight.

I just don't want to be the giving tree anymore. =/

Everyone needs someone. No matter how strong you think you are, or how independent you think you are that you can do anything by yourself or on your own..everyone needs someone. Someone to just be there to say i'm proud of you, or to say you did the right thing. No matter how much you hate it, or how much you don't want to admit it. You need that someone there.

W.W.L.K.D

I  haven't left my bed since i got home from work Tuesday @ 5:30pm. Well i guess i did once to go to the doctors, but that doesn't really count. Since i slept on the way there and back. Tmrw is Thursday and my important Briar wood/sushi/ photobooth date, i better not miss that! Being sick suckks.

goodnight.

I spoke too soon.

Fuck internetless pdas.

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20th-

Chicago is tmrw, today is supposed to be my busy day off, but all i want to do is sleep. I wish i could purchase time, in large quanities preferably. Today was apparently the worst day to be on the road. Everyone traveling should be shot, or just given a good lesson on driving.

I'm sick of feeling like everything is wrong when i hear his name. I was fine before him and i'm determined to be fine after. I just wish he would move already and get the fuck out of my life. Out of everyoes life. I'm dont crying and hurting cayse of some doucebag who is not even worth anyones time. It would be great if i actually believed all of those words, ha i'm dumb.

Love doesn't exist, eat dick.

22nd-

The past two days have been hell. Actually, the past 2.5 days. Thursday night would've been better if i just didn't even to to Jazzys with Kevin. I'm not sure what is wrong with me but, when i fall i fall hard, and it's always for the worst people. Not necessarily cause of their personalities, but because of their friends and frequent visits in my life..

The journey to Chicago couldn't of started any worse. I wish i would've slept til Saturday. I can't wait to be back in Michigan, waking up on my best friends floor with my hello kitty pillow/bag.

Conculsion of the trip: pay back in a bitch, and i can't stand my cousins girlfriend.

23rd-

Save me. I'm becoming more and more heartless each day. I used to get mad, say things i didn't mean and regret them. Now i just get mad, say terrible things and actually mean them. The only thing i truly life and can stand day after day is my best friend.

Family means nothing anymore. I bend over backwards and you leave me for the flavor of the weekd. No matter how many time they turn out to be "crazy" the next is always different, and the one. You're never going to find 'the one' if you're out there hunting. I wish you would realize that, and work on more important things than girls.

As for me, i'm a heartless scumbag who has lost her way officially. I'm more worried about making money than anything. Idk whose fault that is but i'm gonna go with all mine. I need to get my head straight right quick. School has never been a strong suit for me, only cause i can't really get into it. I'm so not self motivated cause it doesn't reward me right away. It will in the long run, and i wish that was enough for me.

Fuck caring about anyone. I'm gonna work on getting my life back on track. Things will have to fall in place aroung that. I know they will, i just need to be patient. One thing i'm totally stoked about is finding my second true friend. Theye say if you have 5 real friends within your lifetime you've done more than good. Abdullah has always been my best friend since we were little, and now i can add Kristin onto the life. We have a few years of history and i can't see that ever ending. Lets hope i haven't spoke too soon.

Woke up h8'n hard this morning. Went through the whole day on like srsly 4 hours of sleep. I got another job though, i'm totally stoked. :] This apartment is becoming more and more realistic by the day and i'm loving every minute of it.

Best friend got a new phone, i got a warm coat finally, and we are both getting our behind the ear cartoon tattoos today.

TeamDFW4lyf3.

LOL@ getting kicked out of Leos. I wasn't even sure if that was possible, but figures it would be when you insult the Leos king. My trip to Chicago is coming up way too quick. I'm second guessing if i want to go, seeing as how i kinda wasted more than half of the money i had set aside for it on a bag of douche. Today made me realize why i'm such a heartless scumbag. Fuck all of you.

I'm currently sitting in my best friends floor, with her and megatron wondering why my ice cream cake looks like it has cancer. ha.

Question of the day: Drop him like a bag of brincks or drop a bag of bricks on him?

i'm too angry to blog.

Surprisingly, today wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. Canada, bad drivers, coffee shops, psp<3 and wild appartment parties.

Dear Best friend,

You complete me. You're my whole support system, i swear. Thank you for making this the best birthday since probably my sweet 16. Behind the ear cartoon tattoos asap. I love you.

Love,

Your lil princess.

Working dat 9-5. fml.

Goodnight.